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detectivejet @ 2009-12-18T15:22:00

2009-12-18T07:22:13Z

I miss ~~being happy~~

detectivejet @ 2009-12-14T03:52:00

2009-12-13T19:53:11Z

I had one of those scary dreams again last night. You know those dreams, where you're running away, but you don't know from what? Scary as hell, and I keep dreaming these dreams.

This time it was in a crowded shopping mall, and I just kept running and pushing pass people, just running and running and running... Up, down, up down, left, right.

Then this time, I don't know why I started hiding, and I think i hid in some sushi shop, and there were construction workers in my dream as well!!! So bloody weird.

Oh and after awhile I ran into some area with barricades, and then I saw Minhwan on the other side and he stuck out his hand so I grabbed it for really long ;P

Well obviously, I'm still on a high from yesterday. Homg, seeing FTI, BEG and TMax live, beat day of my life and it totally cancels out the shit that has happened so far this year :D

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detectivejet @ 2009-11-25T22:18:00

2009-11-25T14:18:02Z

You’re automatic,
And your heart’s like an engine
I die with every beat
You’re automatic,
And your voice is electric
Why do I still believe?

It’s automatic
Everywhere in your letter
A lie that makes me bleed
It’s automatic
When you say things get better
But they never…

There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

detectivejet @ 2009-11-25T01:38:00

2009-11-24T17:38:57Z

Headache.

detectivejet @ 2009-11-24T01:44:00

2009-11-23T17:44:32Z

Just changed my lj layout ^^ cr: minty peach. Teehee ^^

detectivejet @ 2009-11-17T21:05:00

2009-11-17T13:05:34Z

12768.) I'm happy you're leaving. Now I can finally let you go from my heart, after all this time. Thank you.

detectivejet @ 2009-11-15T00:49:00

2009-11-14T16:49:20Z

I know you'll read this.
I'm not angry at you, I'm just disappointed in you because you won't even try.

Time's up, sorry.

detectivejet @ 2009-11-12T19:49:00

2009-11-12T11:56:28Z

Fuck.

detectivejet @ 2009-10-30T01:49:00

2009-10-29T17:51:07Z

Don't assume.

Fuck you, really. Just don't assume. I'm damn sick of this. One more time, I swear.

Good riddance, PJ. Hello poly.

detectivejet @ 2009-10-09T16:06:00

2009-10-09T08:06:52Z

11551.) The worst word I could use to describe the sight of you two is bittersweet. I mean that. I'm not angry, and I'm not completely consumed by hatred like you probably think I am. I'm happy for you. I have nothing but love and support for the two of you.

detectivejet @ 2009-10-08T02:26:00

2009-10-07T18:28:07Z

Promos ending tomorrow. Yours ended today. Means I won't have a reason to study out and see you anymore D:

detectivejet @ 2009-09-22T02:47:00

2009-09-21T18:48:34Z

Cool: 2PM is a group with many nicknames. And you have the most nicknames. Which ones are your favourite?
Taecyeon: "Okcat" was a nickname that started out long ago with me. Recently there's a new one, "Husband Idol". Although I'm an idol, but fans think that I'm "the best husband", and when I take part in variety programs, I usually wear formal outfits. Maybe people think I'm an idol who doesn't look like an idol. Though I look a little older, I still look fairly upright, so they gave this me pet name. I like it a lot, hahaha.

Cool: "OkDaeri" is also one of your nicknames.
Taecyeon: Yes, this is also because I often wear formal suits in variety shows, so people came up with this nickname. Initially when I first appeared on variety shows, people already started coming up with position names like "Manager Ok" and stuff. Somehow, since that day, the members all started calling me "Ok Daeri". I thought it wasn't too bad.

Cool: In a recent conference, it seems like Jaebeom has high expectations from you. Do you think he's sincere about it or he has other motives?
Taecyeon: Firstly I'd like to thank Jaebeom Hyung for liking me, always expressing his love for me in other interviews. (Jaebeom who eavesdropped: Ahahahaha...) But there's another reason behind it. We all respect one another in the group, and are very close friends, (noticed Jaebeom looking very pleased with him). Yes, I take back what I just said. Actually we're both like businessmen, we work on business terms. Jaebeom Hyung, this is the truth right? (Jaebeom is hurt) Aigoo, I was just kidding!!!

Omg Jay's even cute in Taec's interview ^^

detectivejet @ 2009-09-22T02:42:00

2009-09-21T18:43:11Z

Cool: You're innocent and cute in variety programs. You're full of charisma when you're performing on stage. Which of these appearances are closer to the you in real life?
Jay: Both of them are. When rehearsing for dance, I practise as if I'm on stage; in variety shows, I will behave like how I'm normally with among the guys. I'm someone who will give 100% passion and hard work in the things I do, so when it comes to play, I go crazy and play. (laugh)

Cool: If you were to evaluate yourself, how would you rate yourself?
Jay: I think I've been doing well up to now. Of course it's not perfect, but no one is perfect. Though I made some mistakes before, my imperfections were not that serious. For instance, dancing the wrong steps, singing the wrong lyrics. After serious practising with the rest, I've improved by far. I can say that I'm working towards improving even more.

Cool: Jaebeom seems to admire guys like Taecyeon, you often compliment him saying "you're so handsome!", "you're so tall!" Is it because of your height, that you refuse to let your styled hair down? (<- bad person) We think you look good with your hair straight.....
Jay: No it's nothing to do with that. (quibbling?) Actually my hairstyle has changed a number of times. Just that the changes weren't that drastic. Previously my hair was really long, but now that it's cut I'm very happy with it. So I told the stylist to keep styling it like this. But I can't cut it anymore. If I do I won't have any hair left. So right now I'm just leaving my hair to grow, haha. (guilty laughter...)

Ohmagawddddd his interview's damn cute ^^

detectivejet @ 2009-09-11T04:20:00

2009-09-10T21:20:03Z

I miss Park Jaebum. Now he's gone back to being Jay Park. That hurts.

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I haven't gone a day without crying since Monday. It's so stupid crying over someone who doesn't even know I exist, but I can't help it, it hurts. To know that he's really gone, away from 2PM, away from Korea. But at least, he's now back safely in Seattle under the shelter of his parents, where he would be happier. Rather than have him stay in Korea and suffer, I'm glad that he's away from all this shit that the fucking netizens put him through.

Always keep the faith. His ex-managers and JYP staff believe he will come back. They have faith that he will come back, maybe not now, but he will come back, and I trust in this faith they have in him.

Always keep the faith.

They don't love you like I love you

2009-09-01T17:13:53Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SKvpRKJHUC0

Since Youtube doesn't allow embedding.

Maps by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Pack up;
I’m straight;
Enough;
Oh say, say, say;
Oh say, say, say;
Oh say, say, say;
Oh say, say, say;
Oh say, say, say

Wait, they don’t love you like I love you; wait, they don’t love you like I love you;
Ma-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-aps;
Wait! They don’t love you like I love you.....

Lay off;
Don’t stray;
Well, my kind's,your kind;
I’ll stay the same!
Pack up;
Don’t stray;
Oh say, say, say;
Oh say, say, say!

Wait! They don’t love you like I love you;
wait! They don’t love you like I love you;
Ma-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-aps;
Wait! They don’t love you like I love you!
wait! They don’t love you like I love you!
Ma-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-aps!
Wait! They don’t love you like I love you …
(guitar solo)
Wait! They don’t love you like I love you;
And wait! They don’t love you like I love you;
Ma-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-aps;
Wait! They don’t love you like I love you!
And wait! They don’t love you like I love you!
Ma-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-aps!
Wait! They don’t love you like I love you …

I just saw this review of the song. Just makes my heart bleed even more :|
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"I cry when karen O cries in the song. Why? Becuase like many who have reviewed this song before me, I feel what she feels.

"Wait!They don't love you like I love You"

I live for her. I trample on myself. I keep my felings unspoken, but she knows i love her. And when, in spite of that, she is happy with someone new, who is way better, way more suitable in her eyes, I cry. Like a baby. And I look into empty space for hours, like Karen.

And there is that faint, but persistent ringing in my ears, just like the guitar lead the song starts with and which remains, throughout the song, in the background, and which persists after the rest of the song has stopped.

And the world watches on, impassively, like the spectators watching the band perform. They see her tears. It probably tugs at the heart of some of them. Nevertheless I am stuck. Karen is stuck. We can't let go.

An emptiness. An almighty void.

"Wait!They don't love you like I love You"

Its amazing how much emotion that line has.

A song about all us losers who love and are not loved. Who've missed the bus of life and are reminded of it every day."

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I'll miss you.

detectivejet @ 2009-08-31T02:23:00

2009-08-30T18:30:34Z

HIATUS
Till I sort out all my thoughts and get back on track.
I'll miss you.

detectivejet @ 2009-08-31T02:20:00

2009-08-30T18:21:27Z

I think lately I've just lost any sense of urgency I've ever had and I've lost any motivation to write. My life has become such a hetic mess and everyday I come home feeling drained and everything's just piling up now.

I don't know.

I just can't seem to focus anymore.

detectivejet @ 2009-08-15T21:32:00

2009-08-15T13:32:32Z

Fucking redundant. Everything's so fucking redundant.

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detectivejet @ 2009-08-10T11:58:00

2009-08-10T04:02:14Z

It's scary, how we can be so quick to judge a person just from a glance. They say "first impressions are the most important" and now I actually fully understand that. It really is scary how so many assumptions can be made just by looking at the way the person looks/what clothes are they wearing/how do they talk/how do they eat/ how do they laugh/how do they carry themselves?

It just gets so... pretentious after awhile, if you get what I mean.

(bye i'm off to study now !)

detectivejet @ 2009-07-29T11:24:00

2009-07-29T03:25:37Z

I keep having these dreams, the ones where I keep running and running and running, and my feet is blistered and my muscles are searing but I just keep running.

But from what? When I try to remember my brain seems to falter and there is a lapse in my memory; this is getting so frustrating.

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detectivejet @ 2009-07-29T00:26:00

2009-07-28T16:59:27Z

I've never been one to make decisions for myself. Most of the time I just jump on the bandwagon. But now I seem to be facing this !very!difficult! decision and I swear I feel more stressed out trying to make this decision than during exams. I'm such a freak, right.

Sigh. 56 days to promos :(

detectivejet @ 2009-07-26T17:28:00

2009-07-26T09:29:48Z

I hate it when people try to talk intellectually. Fucking pisses me off, especially if they're actually not all that intellectual.

Also, I hate people who don't reply smses. Like god seriously what the hell's your phone for if you're not gonna use it damn it --

I'm such an angsty child, hate it.

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detectivejet @ 2009-07-26T01:44:00

2009-07-25T17:45:27Z

I never realised how much I missed MG till I stepped into school on Friday. The happiness was just so... overwhelming. It was good to be back :)

detectivejet @ 2009-07-18T02:35:00

2009-07-17T18:36:29Z

Stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away stay away

i fucking hate you.

detectivejet @ 2009-07-15T10:17:00

2009-07-15T02:17:47Z

If I wake in the morning
I'll only need two more miracles to be a saint
Everything I promised everone I'd be,
Well I just ain't.

Lately it seems like,
Everybody's sick
Everybody's dead.
Build myself up a wall on a happy high
Knowing my heart
Knows my head is lying.

Oh, Glory...

Panic is back, , so is the !, I love them :)
Brendon :) all is well, life is good :)

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